It's frustrating to be proven otherwise on something I've always had faith in.

I had been proud of all of us, but now, I'm ashamed.

'Cos I'm quite sure that 20 cents don't mean a thing to you people, but no, you guys just aren't kind enough to give them to people who genuinely need them, badly.

If you aren't willing to donate, fine by me, just let me know and I won't bug you. It's not an obligation to begin with and I'm quite sure I'm not that unreasonable.

I was willing to let it all go. I know some people have their reasons, others? Well, they just can't be bothered. You guys don't want to help? Fine.

But was it neccessary to bring down our morale?

Everyone knows the feeling of rejection is never nice. Yet we had to embrace it with a smile when deep down inside we were crushed.

Just say that you aren't keen to help, I'll understand. There was absolutely no need to roll your eyes at me or spit somewhere close to where I was standing. They do nothing but reflect what kind of person you are and what fine attitude and manners you have.

I felt so insignificant, so dejected that I no longer wanted to help.

What makes you guys think that you people have the right to despise those who had been standing under the sun for hours asking for donations? Who are you to judge us through tinted glasses?

I understand that all the corruption incidents have robbed Charity off the faith that you guys once had for it. I know how it feels to have one's trust betrayed.

But what will it take for you guys to regain faith? There are still people out there who need your help. Black sheep don't represent all the volunteers there are and the majority of them really want to help. They want to make a difference to those who need them, no matter how small.

I'm eternally grateful to those who lent a helping hand. Those who were willing to share what they had with those who are much less fortunate. You guys did the right thing, and I'm glad that you all aren't extinct. I was starting to worry.

And I've done what I could. It might not be what I've volunteered to do, but I did my best and I know it.

20 cents might mean nothing to you but it means a whole lot to others.

Reflect, people. It's sad.

Cheers!
6:40 PM

Photos like this make my day. Totally :)

Cheers!
9:23 PM

I think my Mp3's spoilt.

That's fast, I know, but it simply won't turn on no matter how long I press the button ):

I swear I didn't do anything to it!

What am I going to do? I've started relying on it a lot already.

Gosh, that means no music on the bus! Dieeeeeee.

Mp3! Don't die on me! ):

Cheers!
5:33 PM

Finally! An Mp3 of my ownnnnnn! :D

And doesn't it look neat!



The metallic silver colour makes it look so expensive xD

I know it's no Ipod, nor is it some model of Creative Zen. Oh wait, it doesn't even have a brand name actually :\

But the fact that it can play music contents me :) Furthermore, it has a 1GB memory space, an FM radio, a built-in telephone directory and a video recorder.

All for just $59.90!

Congratulate me, c'mon! :)

And it was fully paid by my mother! Yes, and that's a huge accomplishment 'cos getting my mother to buy me one took me so long I thought I was destined to live without an Mp3. I don't know what changed her mind but that's fine by me :)

My sister got the same brandless one as mine, with hers being of an indigo colour instead of metallic silver and we're both thrilled!

With my trusty Mp3, I wouldn't have to endure lonely/boring bus rides home anymore! YAY!

Cheers!
9:49 AM

I tried to unleash all the creativity I had, squeezing my brain juices dry to think of a design that'd hopefully make me feel like it's worthwhile, that I've made the right choice and that life can go on.

But there it was, the fact that I am simply not good enough, glaring back at me, ridiculing me, making feel worse than I already had been.

This is just too difficult. I can't do it.

I just can't.

And you? Condemning our work doesn't make you look good one bit, don't you get it? Does it give you great pride and satisfaction to crush our efforts?

I'm sick and tired of everything.

Everything.

Cheers!
11:46 PM

I got home a happy girl, despite having done so only at 7 in the evening and albeit a lil drained.

Because the souvenir is turning out well. At least to me and Louisa, who stayed back together with me to finish up the DNA structure, along with Eileen, Melvis and even Valencia.


Now really, considering the budget that we were given (i.e. $3 per souvenir), I really think that we've done a pretty decent job already.


No? :)

It's not what it's supposed to look like ultimately of course. There're still a few touching up to do, and a few other materials to source for.

But the main crux is there :)

And through the making of this souvenir, I've realised that Louisa is really amusing and it's fun to do things with her! Sure, we argue a lot, but funny as it may sound, that's really where the fun is!

I like arguing with Louisa haha.

And it's been a day full of revelations. About you.

I can't say I'm not shocked, I did not expect half the things that were said to be about you. I know it isn't right to judge people when all I have for evidence are rumours. But having put my History skills into action, I don't see why any of those people would have lied.

I thought I know you, but now, I'm not so sure. Some people just aren't what they might appear to be and for all I know, you might be one of them.

It's really time I reconsider my stand and ponder over exactly who you are behind that facade. I don't want to be hurt by you, just like what you've done to the others.

Others who treated you as a friend, only to be stabbed in their backs for their faith in you and not know what hit them.

Cheers!
10:52 PM

I was feeling really great about myself, school, life... basically everything because I was in a relatively good mood.

Until YOU had to spoil it all.

Seriously.

If you think you can do a better job than us, sure by all means, go ahead.

Show us that your idea is the one worth taking up, as compared to the one we've spent WEEKS, sacrificing our lunches to come up with. If you think you're so great:

THEN PROVE IT!

Now. I'm not saying no one is allowed to critique or that no one has the right to give opinions/comments. I don't think that our design is the best. Just do so without making yourself sound like a tyrant who's all out to disapprove of our design.

And don't expect us to comply with your thoughts and work on your idea, when you can't find a proper reason as to exactly why you look down upon ours.

Especially when it was a last-minute arrangement, which most of us weren't aware of or had consented.

Scrape our idea and take up yours?

You wish.

I'm fuming, and I have to study for the Bio quiz tomorrow.

When one is down on luck, nothing seems to go right at all.

Cheers!
8:46 PM